The title of this xanga is basically about my choice to leave Paducah on Saturday night. Friday was great by all means. I ended up hanging out with Taylor Ladd and meeting his parents. They are pretty cool. I am becoming more and more excited about spending time with him in Daytona. Beach Party here I come! After that came lovehood, where I met the infamous Andee Shannon. She's cool and Andrew is happy which is cool as well. As for us, right now it's still confusing as ever. We were around each other the entire time, but we were far from norm. Thank God for Sarah Rudolph showing up. She is really the best. lol After that we went and chilled at Maddye's house. It was cool and I basically gave the kid his space as I talked to Sarah about some important stuff between us. Then came a facebook notification that confused/made me extremely happy.
    Then came Saturday. Maddye and I went to Etc. and played the best game ever. Then we met up with everyone and chilled out big time. Addi decided to give me a major pow wow on how I should be handling things, and I basically told him I was conceding. I told him I was giving up on trying so hard because I couldn't live with it anymore. Then Andrew left and Sarah showed up. We talked about alot of stuff. I love talking to her about things, I can say practically anything and she seems to understand. We then went to Drew's house and played Dirty Minds. It was alot of fun. Goode and Andrew showed up and the game died shortly afterwards. People left, I almost bit my tongue off being defensive, and basically that is why I was back in Murray the next day. I had to deal with liking two girls, and fighting off the urge to tell Andrew what was really up and instead I basically ran away from it. I don't plan on quitting though, in fact it was Ryan Smith that gave me a great deal of insight on the situation.
    I want to thank everyone for an amazingly fun weekend. I really needed it and missed out on having you guys with me. It really did feel like I didn't leave at all when I was back and I appreciate that. Be warned though, I come back in two weeks and will be expecting to have an enormous amount of fun.

In the next few days I am expecting some magical burst of happiness to devour me. I don't do sad and I really don't know what my problem is. People are stupid, friends are stupid, school is stupid, life is stupid, but it's always been like that. People always leave, but sometimes they come back. Oh my gosh I just quoted one tree hill I guess I am getting happier. I will probably spend the rest of today in my room with my thoughts encompassed on the next 4 weeks and what to do with them. If I go home I can hang with the kiddies and boy have I missed them, but if I do then I will miss out on Bob, Bo, Katy and Claire(who is still confusing as ever by the way). Of course I know what I am going to choose and so do you guys. The Murray guys are great, but I've really bonded with you guys and miss you all so much. So who is up for a series of fun days and good days cause I'm bringing them back and usin them like they are goin out of style. If you feel like I'm smothering you, leave, if you aren't seeing me, open your eyes, from now until the end of the summer is going to be amazing with or without people. Even if I am confined to my home while everyone else lives their days out it will be amazing. I want to help everyone but you have to follow the three rules of happiness in order to be able to help yourselves. Sounds like I am rambling, but hang out with me for a while and you will see what I am talking about. Let's do this!!